Im back!

Hey everyone,

Sorry it has taken me so long to write!! I have been going through a lot lately.  I have been busy watching Aleena, and she is growing like a weed!! She is now starting to crawl really fast and she is pulling herself up. Its crazy how fast babies grow up!!

Well when I am not watching the baby, I have decided to go back to school and get my GED.  So I have been studying a lot!! Its not something that I have been looking forward to, but it is something that really needs to be done.  I have ignored the whole school subject long enough and really that was a bad choice because no matter how long I ignored it, the problem was still there. I finally gave my pride to the Lord and asked him for help. I just started studying a week ago and he has already helped me so much!! Its funny how we think we can hide from our problems, when really we cant hide from them…they are still there but just getting worse.

Does anyone have any tips on remembering things? I am having a hard time remembering what I am learning!! I have to read things a million times and still its hard for me to remember!  If anyone has any, let me know!!  Well keep me in your prayers everyone!! I need all I can get!!

Sick days

Man it is so hard being sick!   I love the snow but I HATE cold weather!! Does anyone else have to deal with pain during the winter time? I have arthritis from my jaws all the way down to my toes and I just have been having such a hard time moving in the morning and at night with this weather.  And it’s not only the weather, One day I had bleeding for no reason at all…I was just bleeding out of my hands and arm and I could not find the reason why! I hate when weird things happen like that and  never get an answer why.

I know a lot of people see my strong side but everyone needs to know I DO have a weak side to me!! lol…  Here you can see part of that weak side…

 I am so tired of having to wait on disability!! I am so tired of always being sick!! I am so tired of Doctors looking at me like if I make things up, I am so tired of not being able to do things and people think I am just pretending to be sick to get out of things but at the same time I am tired of everyone putting that lable on me as the sick person. I am so tired of everyone reminding me that I am sick! I am so tired of not being able to move and grab things when I want to, I am so tired of not being able to  see out of my right eye, I am so tired of walking and then all of a sudden I lose the use of my legs, I am so tired of not being able to go to sleep because my spine hurts, I am so tired of not being able to drive and get to places by myself!! I am so tired of having DR BILLS!!! I am so tired of pain in every inch of my body, I am so tired of having 12different meds to take!! I am so tired of not being able to work and NEVER HAVING MONEY!!, I am so tired of not being able to be the kind of housewife I want to be, I am so tired of watching everyone move right along with their life and I AM NOT ABLE TO! I am so tired of watching people waste their life away for no reason and I CANT move on with life!!  I am so tired!!!!!! ALL THE TIME I AM TIRED!!!!! 

 Okay, there you have it…I am tired….but I am so glad I have a God that is always there for me and he knows what I am going through, just like he knows what you are going through. He can help us with anything if we just let him take control of our lives! He loves us no matter what we think. We go through things for a reason and we have to remember to praise God in those storms!! It’s so much easier to praise him through easy times in our life, but its harder to praise him through storms like my storm above. We are here on this earth to praise him, we aren’t even here to have the perfect life. If everything was perfect all the time why would we need him?? I know that sounds bad but its the truth! If you are having a hard time in your life please praise the Lord, If you are having good times in your life Praise the Lord!! Have faith that he is going to take care of us. Thats why I am able to wake up everyday and get out of bed…even though it takes me like 5hours to move without pain! I know God is there through it all!! And he is never going to leave me!    

Stay alert to satan’s seductions and to the songs in his town squares

I have been doing the “Daniel” study with Beth Moore, and it is so awesome!!! I dont feel like this study is only for woman, I would love to see men study this as well!!  

 If you read Revelation 17-18 You will see they are talking about babylon and how seductive babylon (this world)  is.

Even our music is seductive!!!  Did you know that they play a certin way a certin tune to make that song get stuck in your head, have you ever noticed that you didn’t like a song but find it getting stuck in your head anyway!!  And sometimes you end up liking  the stupid song…..Thats because of this suductive world we live in!!!  Notice that Kohls ALWAYS has sales…hmm….if they were really having all these sales they wouldn’t be making any money…what they do is bump up the prices “mark it down” (to the real price) and call it a sale!! There it is again…the suductive babylon world! 

 Gross excess catapults us so far into our wants that we cease to reconginze needs! 

 Beth Moore brought this passage that Eugene Perterson wrote….

“We try to get <joy> through entertainment. We pay someone to make jokes, tell stories, perform dramatic actions, sing songs. We buy the vitality of anothers imagination to divert and enliven our own poor lives. The enormous entertainment industry in America is a sign of the depletion of joy in our culture.  Society is a bored, gluttonous king employing a court jester to divert it after an overindulgent meal. But that kind of joy never penetrates our lives, never changes our basic constitution. The effects are extremely temporary-a few minutes, a few hours, a few days at most. When we run out of money, the joy trickles away.”

And he is sooooo right about all of that!!  We really need to repent and ask God to forgive us for falling for this spell these “merchants” has cast on us. We need to ask God to open our eyes to it and to give us the wisdom and the strength to cope with this world we live in according to HIS will and not the will of this world.

Beth Moore “From Satan’s first entrance on the stage of the earth in Genesis 3, he’s tried to convince believers that God is holding out on them. Cheating them. Satan tries to suggest that this life is all we can be sure of: live is sacrificially and we’ve lost it all. He mocks , “how gullible- how stupid- could you be? live it up while you’ve got a chance!” As we walk up and down the sidewalks of our present babylons, stay alert to his seductions and to the songs in his town squares. In reality, Satan is the cheater and babylon is his queen, offering false fulfillment for any taker. Buyer beware.”

New year!

Man, its SOOO cold outside!! I hate the cold weather!!! 

 I remember when I was a little girl I used to always love winter, it would always snow and we would go outside and have snowball fights and make snowmen….But I always paid for it later!!  I would not last long outside with the rest of my siblings, my body would ach and ach. I didn’t comprehend that it was the cold weather doing it to my body!  I have arthritis in my whole body, you name a joint and I have it it there! 

 I was really loving this winter, up until a couple days ago!!  It’s so cold outside now, and waking up is like the wrose thing ever!!! I don’t want to go to sleep because I know I will have to wake up and I wont be able to move for a couple of hours. Well I will be able to move but it will hurt!!! 

 I guess I will just have to take that extra time and lay there and pray, God really knows how to get me slow down!!!

 I want to slow down a lot this year!  I have always been the type to go go go and only think about myself when I get really bad off, but I can’t do that anymore!!   I have been sitting here thinking about all the things I need to work on in 2008 and I really want God to help me with these things. I have never been the type to come up with something I need to work on throughout the year because I didn’t think I would really follow through with it, but I have been thinking about it and I know that there are lots of things that I need to change.  I know God loves me the way I am but he doesn’t want me to stay that way. He wants me to better myself and he tells us “In everything you do work at it as if working for the Lord”  And I know working on bettering ourself is one thing we should work on, if not for yourself, then you can do it for the Lord!  

I also I want to start writting down my prayers to the Lord, I love to look back at how things turned out. Its so easy to forget what the Lord has blessed us with. We are always wanting something but we can’t remember what we have gotten.  I used to write my prayers down before Brent was walking with the Lord and I used to be so upset and praying that God would change him and the next thing I know God changed him inside and out and I forget that sometimes. I look at my jounal, page after page after page, talking to God and asking him to just change him and praising God and claiming it done….and after 3years its so easy for me to forget all of that.  I still want to praise him for what he has done!!

 Well I hope all of you have a Blessed year!!!

Dream

Have you ever had a dream you just can’t seem to get out of your head?  Well I had a dream like that the night before last night.

I had a dream that I got my eye sight back and I was crying so hard and I was so happy and I was running around telling everyone about my eye sight coming back and no one was excited, not even my husband! He was saying yes babe I know, thats good….and I was like but you don’t understand I finally got my eye sight back!! And I heard something dripping and I woke up and it was raining outside and I guess I heard the rain dripping by the window….but anyway I didn’t think about the dream until about 30mins after I was awake….I was sitting at the computer trying to get my eyes to focus…sometimes it takes awhile for me to see stuff and I remembered my dream and I was so upset that it was only a dream!

I haven’t seen out of my eye since I was ummm…I think 17, so thats about 5years!!  I normally can’t remember what it’s like to see out of both eyes but in the dream I really could see out of both eyes and I think now I want to see more than ever before!

I think I had that dream because I went to the eye doctor about 2weeks ago and they told me I will never see out of that eye again unless God has other plans, and I have been having a lot of problems with my eyes.

I have been having eye problems my whole life!! I have been going to the eye doctor since I have been 5years old and when I was 13 they finally found the disease that tries to control my life. (I wont let it!)

But I have to say I am very blessed that I’m able to keep my eye ball and I can still see out of my left eye.  Sometimes we really don’t realize how blessed we are until we lose something! We should count our blessings more often!!!  Well thats my thoughts as of the moment!

(Don’t feel bad for me, and I MEAN IT!!)   I never really told people about my sickness until this past year because I didn’t want people to think “poor Sabrina” I know I am in God’s will and he wants the best for me,  I am going through all of this for a reason and I can’t wait to see the out come of it all!!

Well thanks for reading my blog!! Leave me comments

Weekend

Man….It has been a LONG weekend!!! First I wake up Sat. morning and I was hurting so bad, I was thinking about going to the hospital but I really didn’t want to go…so I was I pretty much laid around the house until 4:00 and then I was starting to feel like I was able to walk again so we went to wal-mart picked up a gift for someone at Brent’s job and then we went to Brent’s Uncles house (that was the first time I have ever met his dad’s side of the family). Then we went to our Church Christmas party, that was a lot of fun, I always look forward to that!! My pastor’s wife made some AWESOME peanut butter balls, I couldn’t just eat one…they were just too good!! Then we got up early Sunday morning and went to church, I was hurting but I didn’t care I got up and danced anyway!! And I didn’t pay for it later (surprisingly) then we went to east coast wings…mmm….I love that place!! If you ever go you need to get the Honey BBQ Extra Hot, those are the best!! And then I went and got a message and that helped me out A LOT!! And then… I went to a friends Church, they were having a their Christmas play, and it was so great!! Then we went to our Sunday night bible study, we have been studying Job, Thats a good book to read when you think you have problems!! You will stop thinking that right away!! And then today…. I went to work at the coffee business, thats always fun. If you ever want some good coffee, I know the place to go! After work I got the rest of my Christmas shopping done wooo hoo!! I think I have another busy day tomorrow, I’m not really sure though.

Well I just thought I would write a quick post, I know this is a busy time of year and I’m not really sure when the next post I will be able to write so YOU KNOW I’m busy!! Well have a GOOD WEEK EVERYONE!!!

Christmas traditions

Christmas….the greatest time of year!  I have (I guess you can call it a tradition) every year I get a “charlie brown tree”  and me and my husband decided that we will keep getting the charlie brown Christmas trees until we buy a house and thats when we will start to buy a real nice BIG Christmas tree. We also talked about maybe getting a charlie brown tree and put it in another room hehe. We love them, they are so cute and fun.  This year we got ours and finally they had a stand to go with it!! Most of the time they dont have stands….it gets better and better each year!

  And Every Christmas eve me and my family get together and watch It’s a wonderful life, I don’t think it would be Christmas eve without that movie!! hehe

Do you have any Christmas traditions?

The Husband rants!

It’s been a while since the last post so I’m going to help out. I’ve been trying to keep on the up and up on the latest thing in spirituality. There seems to be a surge in nuanced biblical teachings. Now we know that these truths are timeless. We need to teach all peoples, faiths, etc, these truths. But there our teachings! Not the Unitarians, not the “Christudaahists”

Now don’t get me wrong there are some powerful pastors and leaders in the kingdom but they are far out numbered by old beginners. We need to be masters of the wisdom that GOD gives us, if your a follower of Christ and you can’t drop some knowledge on somebody and not be a hypocrite we’ve got a problem! I’m no bible scholar but I’m studying and know that I can run with the best of em. I don’t mean to be hard on people but, no, wait, yes I do. 

GOD bless.

update

Hey everyone,

  I know it’s been a long while since I have wrote a blog…SORRY!!  It’s not that I ran out of things to talk about, I NEVER DO THAT haha. I have just been pondering a lot of things lately…ya know those times when you have so much going on in your head that you really need to sort through them before you actually talk about them so that it all come’s out right. Well I am still in the middle of doing some sorting but I thought I would write everyone an update on things that have been going on.

  God had blessed me and my husband this weekend by making a way for us to go to an awesome leadership converence. We left Thusday afternoon and got back on Sat evening and we were not ready to come back home! God really spoke to us and narrowed down the path he wants us to take. We are going to serve in our church for however long God wants us there, as Youth/Sunday School/Nursery leaders and eventually make it into the mission field. That has been on our hearts for a really long time and we really didn’t make an effort to go because I have been sick…. But we are believing  God is going to heal me very soon and we will be able to go.  We are just asking for prayers that we wont lose focus and we can just do Gods will in our lives.

  Well I have had a pretty long day today, and I have to get up early to go to the doctor (fun fun)…So Im going to go ahead and end this now. I hope everyone has a WONDERFUL Thanksgiving!!!!!!!  *eat LOTS of turkey!!!*

Newest discovery

My niece is the most determined three month old I have ever met! She is so funny! She is just learning that she has hands! And for about an hour she tried to get her thumb in her mouth. I think I would have gave up a long time ago!! I thought I would share a picture with all of you how Aleena looked for a whole hour….(and no she never did get her thumb in her mouth!)

 It’s so intriguing to watch her sit there for so long and never get her thumb and then something else catches her attention and she doesn’t get all upset about spending so much time on something and it doesn’t happen, she just moves right along to the next best thing. The only time she really know’s is her stomach. Man how would this world work if there so no such thing as time! I don’t know if I want to know the answer for that…if there was no time, people would probably never get anything done! Or, who knows some might get more done hehe.