A bit of advice!

Hello cyber world! Just thought I would let out a bit of frustration and give advice all at the same time.

Kids…DO NOT DROP OUT OF SCHOOL!! When you think that it is too hard and you just can’t do another day of it, press through and do the work! If you don’t  do the work now then you will have to do it someday, and it gets harder the older you get!! Trust me!! I dropped out when I was 15years young and I am only 23 now, and omg this stuff is harder than I would like to admit. Not only do I feel stupid for not knowing this basic stuff, but I have to sit back and take time out of my busy life to do something I should have done a long time ago.

I did not drop out of school because I liked to party, or because I was a bad student or even because  I didn’t have people there for me. I dropped out because I have sarcoidosis…that includes….arthritis, eye problems (blind in one eye)…and so on and so on. I got really behind in my school work because of all the stress from being sick and I had a lot of bad days where I couldn’t move my body. That takes a lot out of a 15year girl…my mom didn’t blame me for not doing school…I mean what could she say? I know you are going blind and you can’t hold a pen but you need to do this test!…No my mom did not say that but at times I wish she did. I have been blessed with a very understanding mom that just wanted me to be happy….and school made me very UNHAPPY!  Now I am 23 years old, married to a great husband and I have a wonderful church family that is going to help me with this education thing. I just hope I don’t screw it up this time and give up.  I still have a lot of bad days where I can’t hold a pen…or move my body for that matter….. I can only see out of one eye and my head hurts a lot….. But I am going to push through this and get my GED. Even if I die trying!….which I don’t think that is going to happen….but who knows lol.

Anyway….my point is DO NOT QUIT SCHOOL!!! YOU WILL REGRET IT WITH EVERYTHING IN YOU!!! That is what I am going through right now

Sorry if I am all over the place in this blog…it wasn’t meant to be perfect! I just wanted to let out some frustration!

Back to School!

Most of you know that I have went back to school. It isn’t something that is exciting and something I look forward to everyday, But I know I had to do this to better myself.  This is a part of my life that I shut out of my life since I was about 13years old. One, I couldn’t learn like everyone else and that made me feel stupid, two I was ALWAYS sick!! Some days I couldn’t even hold a book, I couldn’t see very good, to sit in one spot with pain like you are getting electrocuted and trying to study is one of the most hardest things to do!For a couple years now I have regretted dropping out of school and I just couldn’t see how someone could be so dumb to do that, but to tell you the truth now that I have started back, I am remembering everything a little kid had to go through (me) and now I see why it was such a traumatic experience.  I am 22 years old right now and it is still really hard not to just proclaim myself officially sick and use that to my advantage; But I will not let Satan have that kind of satisfaction.

   If you are wanting to go back to school to get your GED but you think you are dumb, or you don’t think you can do it please rethink that!! I know it will be one of the most hardest things you may ever do, and I know that you have a chance at failing, but the way I look at it, without trying you are failing anyway. If you think you are dumb, you aren’t getting any smarter! God wants the best for his children, and for us to have the best in this world you can’t get very far without an education, it sucks I know!!  When I decided to go back I was soooo scared!! I was scared to even think about what people would think of me when they found out that I didn’t graduate with my twin sister like they all thought. I was scared to pick up the GED book  because I didn’t want to face that I didn’t understand what was in it. I stared back about 3months ago and some things I am excited about learning, I have found out that I DON’T hate everything about school, I found out that I am not as stupid as Satan was trying to make me feel. I also found out that EVERYONE is proud of me and EVERYONE is willing to help me out if they can. Not having an education is not something you should be shameful of, it’s just one more thing you need to put on your prioty list and say I WILL get through this!  Now I didn’t go into this thinking that I would get my GED right away, I want to learn everything I can learn!! I don’t want to just barley pass, I want to look at all my scores and they all pass with flying colors. 

  Keep me in your prayers!! And I will keep you in my prayers, so that you will have the courage to go back to school and change your life for the better.  Thanks for reading my blog. Remember if you ever need someone to talk that has been in your shoes, I AM here for you!!  God Bless!!