Most of you know that I have went back to school. It isn’t something that is exciting and something I look forward to everyday, But I know I had to do this to better myself. This is a part of my life that I shut out of my life since I was about 13years old. One, I couldn’t learn like everyone else and that made me feel stupid, two I was ALWAYS sick!! Some days I couldn’t even hold a book, I couldn’t see very good, to sit in one spot with pain like you are getting electrocuted and trying to study is one of the most hardest things to do!For a couple years now I have regretted dropping out of school and I just couldn’t see how someone could be so dumb to do that, but to tell you the truth now that I have started back, I am remembering everything a little kid had to go through (me) and now I see why it was such a traumatic experience. I am 22 years old right now and it is still really hard not to just proclaim myself officially sick and use that to my advantage; But I will not let Satan have that kind of satisfaction.
If you are wanting to go back to school to get your GED but you think you are dumb, or you don’t think you can do it please rethink that!! I know it will be one of the most hardest things you may ever do, and I know that you have a chance at failing, but the way I look at it, without trying you are failing anyway. If you think you are dumb, you aren’t getting any smarter! God wants the best for his children, and for us to have the best in this world you can’t get very far without an education, it sucks I know!! When I decided to go back I was soooo scared!! I was scared to even think about what people would think of me when they found out that I didn’t graduate with my twin sister like they all thought. I was scared to pick up the GED book because I didn’t want to face that I didn’t understand what was in it. I stared back about 3months ago and some things I am excited about learning, I have found out that I DON’T hate everything about school, I found out that I am not as stupid as Satan was trying to make me feel. I also found out that EVERYONE is proud of me and EVERYONE is willing to help me out if they can. Not having an education is not something you should be shameful of, it’s just one more thing you need to put on your prioty list and say I WILL get through this! Now I didn’t go into this thinking that I would get my GED right away, I want to learn everything I can learn!! I don’t want to just barley pass, I want to look at all my scores and they all pass with flying colors.
Keep me in your prayers!! And I will keep you in my prayers, so that you will have the courage to go back to school and change your life for the better. Thanks for reading my blog. Remember if you ever need someone to talk that has been in your shoes, I AM here for you!! God Bless!!
