You can’t give away something you don’t have.

This is chapter 2 in the book “reduce me to love”. I really like this chapter a lot! I have learned so much!! Here are some of my notes I got from the book. Enjoy!!

“~ Love has a beginning and a completion. First, God loves us, and by faith we recive His love. We then love ourselves in a balanced way, we give love back to God and we learn to love other people. Love must follow this course or it is not complete.

~ God’s love is unconditional; it is based on Him, not on us!

~ Once you realize that you are loved by God, not because of anything you are or anything you have done, then you can quit trying to deserve His love or earn his love and simply receive it and enjoy it.

~Start by confessing that God loves you. Say it out loud servral times a day when you are alone. Speak it out into the atmosphere and get used to hearing it – get comfortable with the though of it. Bask in His love, soak in it and let it aturate your soul – your thinking and emotions.  Imagine the gloy of it. “God loves me!”

~ Know the love of God…Ephesians 3: 17-19

~ Give away what you have…For much of our lives, we try to find happiness the wrong way. We attempt to find it in getting, but it is found in giving.

~ Generosity is love in action. Love is seen through edification and encouragement , patience, kindness, courtesy, humilty, unselfishness, good temper, gentelness (believing the best) and sincerity.

~ Little things mean a lot

~ Little things are often viewed as being insignificant, but in reality they are very important. Little things are the spices of life.

~ Love is the salt of life.  Read Matthew 5:13

~ Everyday can be exciting if we see ourselves as Gods secret agents, waiting in the shadows to sprinkle some salt on all the tastless lives we encounter. For example, we might see a woman behinda counter in a fast food resturant who looks unhappy, tired, and angry. A simple thing like saying, “your hair is really pretty”, can add flavor to her day.

~Love is an effort. Somtimes we allow ourselves to become lazy in dispersing this gift. “

Chapter 3 is about loving with words…I am excited about reading more; hope you are too!!

Reduce me to love (Chapter 1)

I am reading this book called “Reduce me to love”. It has a lot of really good points about love and what we are really searching for. Here are some foot notes I made from the first chapter.

~Love is the energy of life. It is what motivates people to get up each day and keep going.

~Love gives people purpose and meaning. The world is looking for love, but they are really looking for God, because God is love.

~People look for fulfillment in life in different ways that may seem good at first, but often leave them feeling frustrated, disapointed and empty. Only by walking in love (putting love into action by continually reaching out to other and making an effort to show them love through various acts of kindness) can they find the true fulfillment they are so desperately seeking.

~Love is the trademark of the Christian

~True power and success is love

~ We must have our minds renewed to what love really is. It is not a feeling we have; it is a decision we make…a decision to treat people the way Jesus would treat them.

~1 Corinthians 14

¹EAGERLY PURSUE and seek to acquire [this] love [make it your aim, your great quest]; and earnestly desire and cultivate the spiritual endowments (gifts), especially that you may prophesy (^[a]interpret the divine will and purpose in inspired preaching and teaching).

~All of us must not only learn about love but also seek, pursue & acquire it, because God word bodly tells us that without it we are totally nothing.

~love is the universal language; everyone understands it. Even though the people of a remote village in india or Africa may not understand the language of the missionary who is sent to the, they can understand kindness, warmth and a caring attitude.

~Love never fails….(1corinthians 13:8)

~love can melt the hardest heart, it can heal the wounds of the broken heart and it can quiet the fears of the anxious heart.

~It is impossible to give to others something you do not have yourself.

Well that is all for the first chapter. You think my footnotes are good? The book is EVEN better! I wanted to put the whole chapter on here lol. Well I hope you all enjoyed! Come back for chapter 2 tomorrow. 

random thought

Wouldn’t it be nice if God wrote me a letter and told me everything he wanted me to do with my life? I hate playing the guessing game sometimes. God does make things clear to me a lot of times, and then sometimes I have wax in my ears and it’s hard to hear him! All I can do is pray for Gods will to be done in my life and know that He is on my side! Dessions….dessions…..*sigh*

FAIL!

Poor girl!! I can’t believe her bridesmaid laughed under her breath.

Here is another video. I never thought people should ask people to marry them in front of a crowd. You kind of make it hard for a girl to say no.

A bit of advice!

Hello cyber world! Just thought I would let out a bit of frustration and give advice all at the same time.

Kids…DO NOT DROP OUT OF SCHOOL!! When you think that it is too hard and you just can’t do another day of it, press through and do the work! If you don’t  do the work now then you will have to do it someday, and it gets harder the older you get!! Trust me!! I dropped out when I was 15years young and I am only 23 now, and omg this stuff is harder than I would like to admit. Not only do I feel stupid for not knowing this basic stuff, but I have to sit back and take time out of my busy life to do something I should have done a long time ago.

I did not drop out of school because I liked to party, or because I was a bad student or even because  I didn’t have people there for me. I dropped out because I have sarcoidosis…that includes….arthritis, eye problems (blind in one eye)…and so on and so on. I got really behind in my school work because of all the stress from being sick and I had a lot of bad days where I couldn’t move my body. That takes a lot out of a 15year girl…my mom didn’t blame me for not doing school…I mean what could she say? I know you are going blind and you can’t hold a pen but you need to do this test!…No my mom did not say that but at times I wish she did. I have been blessed with a very understanding mom that just wanted me to be happy….and school made me very UNHAPPY!  Now I am 23 years old, married to a great husband and I have a wonderful church family that is going to help me with this education thing. I just hope I don’t screw it up this time and give up.  I still have a lot of bad days where I can’t hold a pen…or move my body for that matter….. I can only see out of one eye and my head hurts a lot….. But I am going to push through this and get my GED. Even if I die trying!….which I don’t think that is going to happen….but who knows lol.

Anyway….my point is DO NOT QUIT SCHOOL!!! YOU WILL REGRET IT WITH EVERYTHING IN YOU!!! That is what I am going through right now

Sorry if I am all over the place in this blog…it wasn’t meant to be perfect! I just wanted to let out some frustration!

Back to School!

Most of you know that I have went back to school. It isn’t something that is exciting and something I look forward to everyday, But I know I had to do this to better myself.  This is a part of my life that I shut out of my life since I was about 13years old. One, I couldn’t learn like everyone else and that made me feel stupid, two I was ALWAYS sick!! Some days I couldn’t even hold a book, I couldn’t see very good, to sit in one spot with pain like you are getting electrocuted and trying to study is one of the most hardest things to do!For a couple years now I have regretted dropping out of school and I just couldn’t see how someone could be so dumb to do that, but to tell you the truth now that I have started back, I am remembering everything a little kid had to go through (me) and now I see why it was such a traumatic experience.  I am 22 years old right now and it is still really hard not to just proclaim myself officially sick and use that to my advantage; But I will not let Satan have that kind of satisfaction.

   If you are wanting to go back to school to get your GED but you think you are dumb, or you don’t think you can do it please rethink that!! I know it will be one of the most hardest things you may ever do, and I know that you have a chance at failing, but the way I look at it, without trying you are failing anyway. If you think you are dumb, you aren’t getting any smarter! God wants the best for his children, and for us to have the best in this world you can’t get very far without an education, it sucks I know!!  When I decided to go back I was soooo scared!! I was scared to even think about what people would think of me when they found out that I didn’t graduate with my twin sister like they all thought. I was scared to pick up the GED book  because I didn’t want to face that I didn’t understand what was in it. I stared back about 3months ago and some things I am excited about learning, I have found out that I DON’T hate everything about school, I found out that I am not as stupid as Satan was trying to make me feel. I also found out that EVERYONE is proud of me and EVERYONE is willing to help me out if they can. Not having an education is not something you should be shameful of, it’s just one more thing you need to put on your prioty list and say I WILL get through this!  Now I didn’t go into this thinking that I would get my GED right away, I want to learn everything I can learn!! I don’t want to just barley pass, I want to look at all my scores and they all pass with flying colors. 

  Keep me in your prayers!! And I will keep you in my prayers, so that you will have the courage to go back to school and change your life for the better.  Thanks for reading my blog. Remember if you ever need someone to talk that has been in your shoes, I AM here for you!!  God Bless!!

FL trip!

Hey everyone!!
We are finally back from our trip!! We were gone for one week and 2 days (it was extended thanks to car trouble!)

 Our trip was great, we went to Fort Myers and stayed with my grandmother.  We went to the beach like everyday it was so awesome. We went to this one beach called sanibel Island and that beach has seashells EVERYWHERE!! I got so burned because I wasn’t putting any sunscreen oon because I was too caught up in getting seashells lol and now I am peeling from my sunburn AHHH. 

Last weds we went to Key Largo and the water there is so pretty!! I will have to post some pictures on here. The weather was so nice but it did rain a couple of times, but the funny thing about FL rain is it doesn’t last very long at all, so that was nice!! I was glad that my health held up for the most part.  When we were at the Keys my husband and brother went snorkeling and I swam all the way where they were at and as I was swimming out there I noticed the water got REALLY blue and really cold, I finally get up to them and  comes to find out it  was like 30ft deep and a bunch of fish were swimming around me!! I swam back as fast as I could and I was so out of breath it wasn’t even funny. Then about 30mins later I was unable to walk for about 24hours. I learned my lesson I am not going to do that again!! lol.

 Ohh yeah and one day we went and were looking at allegators and we ran into this one place and this man had a pet allegator and I was going to hold it but I chickend out but I did pet it and my husband and our friend Teddy held it!  It was very much so the most adventures trip I have ever been on. Sorry I am just kind of all over the place right now but there was so much that went on Its kind of hard to narrow it all down lol.

 There is one last thing I would like to say. God did bless our trip, even when we broken down. We were all in a big panic at first, we were in Jacksonville FL and it was just me, my mom, our friend Kim, my sister and my brother (which only has one working arm at the moment) and none of us really knows much about cars, and my husband was already in NC (8hours away from us!!) It was like 95degrees and we didn’t even know where we were at!  But this one man Stopped to help us, he didn’t know what was wrong with our car but he tried to get someone to come and look at it and he got us a ride to a hotel (which took a couple trips because he had a small truck and we had a lot of people). We couldn’t get the car towed until the next day so during the night he was looking after our car so nothing would happen to it and he gave us a couple more rides back and forth from the car and to walmart. We did break down in the most amazing place!! Like 1mile from our car was walmart, hotels, resturants, tow company, part store And some REALLY REALLY nice people!! It’s funny how when we break down we pray that God will just like do a miracle and like fix the car, but what we dont think about is God has other ways he works also. In our case he blessed us with being around people who care, food in our stomachs and a comfy place to sleep!  Oh yes and the money so we could get our car fixed. So I find us very blessed!!!  

Sorry if this was hard to read lol I just have SOO Much to talk about!! At least you were able to get a little glimps of our trip  

Well I am going to bed now, I hope everyone has a goodnight!

HAHA

I thought she was funny I had to show everyone

I wish I had all the answers!!

I have SOOO many people come to me and ask me questions about God and about the bible. I have so many people in my life that disagree with Gods word. My goal is to know Gods word like the back of my hand. I have a big problem with remembering things, I do know Gods word and I have A LOT of notes!! But when someone asks me a question there are a lot of times I say hold on let me get back with you about that. Sometimes I know the answer but still I don’t like to rush into giving them an answer because later on I will think “man I should have said this and I shouldn’t of said that”,but here again I would love to answer them right away when they are wanting to talk about it.

I thank God I have people come to me and ask me these questions, and I don’t want them to stop asking me.  A lot of times these people have good questions, questions I would have never even thought of.  This does keep mine and Gods relationship interesting at times, lol.  I just have to keep pressing through Gods word, and I pray that same thing Beth Moore prays “God stretch my mind to the max!!”

I wish I had all the answers but I am thankful that I have resources I can go to, like My lord and savior above anyone else, my Husband and my Pastor. I am very blessed to have them in my life, and I can trust what they are going to say isn’t going to leave me astray! Thanks guys

Well it is 7:30am and I am up, so I guess I am going to go study Gods word!  Have a great day people!!

Ugh kids these days!

Me and my mom went to the spring folly. (For those who do not know what the spring folly is, it is a small town fair and it comes once a year here in Kernersville.) I can’t believe how much the food cost this year! Well I don’t know if I can’t believe how much the food cost or if I can’t believe that I actually PAID for the food!! It’s crazy!!  I used to always have so much fun at those type of events, but as me and my mom sat there and ate our over priced food, we were looking around at all the kids; It is so sad how these kids are turning out!!  We saw all these kids cussing and smoking and a lot of them looked like they had a few drinks before they went to the folly. I am not talking about 17year olds I’m talking about 12-14 year olds!  I don’t know if I don’t understand these kids because I have always had REAL problems and didn’t have to make my own. I was never really one to “follow the crowd”. I was probably the one that was always talked about for NOT following them. Who knows they, they might all had really bad problems and they think that’s the only thing they can turn to.  I guess all we can do is pray for these kids, and ask God to show them that he has something A LOT better for them.  Sorry I just needed to vent for a minute. I hope everyone has a GREAT weekend, and I will be writing more on Monday.  Don’t miss me too much *hehe*